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i mean to prove i mean to move in my own way

Extraordinary Machine

Created on 2000-10-19 19:13:58 (#20662), last updated 2007-08-10

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Name:	Extraordinary Machine
Birthdate:	09-09
Location:	Indiana, United States
Website:	Me

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benfoldsfivealive@yahoo.com

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I can always find someone to say they sympathize
If I wear my heart out on my sleeve
But I don't want some pretty face to tell me pretty lies
All I want is someone to believe

Honesty is such a lonely word,
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard -
And mostly what I need from you.

- Billy Joel

***

Could I Be You

Something is wrong
with the sum of us
That I can't seem to erase
How can I be
The only one
Without a smile on my face
When now

You're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

You show your pain
Like it really hurts
And I can't even
Start to feel mine

And I'm standing in place
With my head first
And I shake I shake I shake
And I see your progress
Stretched out for miles
And miles

And you're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

This is the sound that I make
These are the words I chose
But somehow the right thing to say
Just won't come out

Cuz you're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
I was wondering
Could I just be you
Tonight

not a pretty girl

i am not a pretty girl
that is not what i do
i ain't no damsel in distress
and i don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

i am not an angry girl
but it seems like i've got everyone fooled
every time i say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling

and i am sorry
i am not a maiden fair
and i am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

and generally my generation
wouldn't be caught dead working for the man
and generally i agree with them
trouble is you gotta have yourself an alternate plan
and i have earned my disillusionment
i have been working all of my life
and i am a patriot
i have been fighting the good fight
and what if there are no damsels in distress
what if i knew that and i called your bluff?
don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down
whether or not you ever show up

i am not a pretty girl
i don't want to be a pretty girl
no i want to be more than a pretty girl

the way things are

I wouldn't know what to do with another chance if you gave it to me
I couldn't take the embrace of a real romance; it'd race right through me
I'm much better off the way things are
much, much better off
better by far

I wouldn't know what to say to a gentle voice
it'd roll right past me
and if you chalk it up you'll see I don't really have a choice
so don't even ask me
I'm much better off
the way the things are
much, much better off
better by far

so keep on calling me names, keep on keep on
I'll keep kicking the crap 'till it's gone
if you keep on killing you could get me to settle and as soon as I settle I bet I'll be able to move on
How can I fight when we're on the same side?
how can I fight beside you?

get gone

how many times do I have to say
get away
get gone

flip your shit past another lasses humble dwelling

You got your game, made your shot, and you got away
with a lot
but I'm not turned on
so put away that meat you're selling
'cause I do know what's good for me
and I've done what I could for you
but you're not benefitting
and yet I'm sitting
singing again

How can I deal with this?
if he won't get with this
am I gonna heal from this?
He won't admit to it
nothing to figure out,
I gotta get him out
it's time the truth got out
that he don't give a shit about me

Cause I do know what's good for me
And I've done what I could for you
But you're not benefitting, and yet I'm sitting

How many times can it escalate
'til it elevates to a place I can't breathe
and I must decide if you must arrive
then I'm much obliged to up and go
I'll idealize and realize that it's no sacrifice
because the price is paid and there's nothing left to grieve
...Fuckin' go
Cause I've done what I could for you
And I do know what's good for me
And I'm not benefitting, instead I'm sitting

Nothing to figure out, I gotta get him out
It's time the truth was out that he don't give a shit about me

I'm just your regular geek-tabulous chick who loves computers and graphic design. I love to shop, I love clothes, but I don't wear pink...often.

I like most people.

I hate math. I hate math. Really.

I am usually the "funny one" in the group. So don't you dare saying something quirky while I'm around. That's my line, bitch.

I have many emotional hangups and sometimes I might want to rehash my past. This is where you smack me and tell me everything is going to be ok.

I am a horrible friend, and probably a worse girlfriend. Mostly because I'm insecure and antisocial.

I like to think I'm starting to branch out...

Oh yeah, Ben Folds Five still is, and always will be: The Best Band EVER

this is the way it should always be
I've never had the propensity to work, breed, and die
I prefer to spend mine on the fly
the be-er's got to be and the flee-er's got to flee
but as for me, well
don't worry about me</i>

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